A few days ago was the 11th year mark of the auto accident that God used to change me and my life forever. Each year on that day I spent time reflecting on the work that He has done in me, the changes that I have made, the work that He has done in my life, and the things that are going on my life at that time. As I did that this year He spoke to me in a great way about things that I am currently dealing with and I think that it is something that I should share with you guys because I think that many of us deal with the issues. I am going to write my journal entry that I wrote about what He spoke to me.
It’s been 11 years since my accident. I have gotten off the path that I am suppose to be on and it is time to get back onto it. I need to get my mind back in the right place. I have to stop running from God and the things that He wants me to let go of in my life. He wants me to let go of the things that are keeping me down, keeping me stuck, and taking my peace and joy from me. The things that are making me feel the way that I do about myself and about my relationship with Him. He still loves the same as He always has but I am ashamed of myself and disappointed in myself. And because I feel that way about myself I think that He feels that way about me too. The enemy is using my feelings to try to defeat me because He knows that if I have wrong thoughts and feelings about myself within me then I won’t be happy, useful, productive, peaceful, doing God’s work, or be a positive example to anyone else.
But I can and will do what I need to do. I am strong. I am worthy. I will not listen to the enemy or my flesh. I am a new person, the old me has passed away. God loves me and accepts me just as I am. The Holy Spirit lives in me. I am special. I am valuable. I am God’s child. I can do whatever I need to do. God is with me and He is for me. I deserve the best. I do not give into passivity or laziness. I am blessed. God has good plans for me. I receive God’s love and forgiveness. I receive His grace and His mercy. ( speak and declare these things to myself daily)
When I do not do what I know I need to do or that I should do for myself, my life, and my well being I am slowly killing myself. I am the cause of my own death, rather it be physically, mentally, emotionally, or spiritually, When I do not do what I know to do for myself then I am slowly killing myself. When I do not do what the spirit is telling me to do I am making it weaker and my flesh stronger. I am sucking the life giving spirit out of me when I allow my flesh to rule over it.
Doing the right thing or what I should be doing can be uncomfortable at first. But once I sit threw the discomfort and do what I need to anyway I gain strength, confidence, power, and motivation. Then it gets easier to follow the spirit and deny the flesh. I will be able to feel good about myself when I lay my head on the pillow at night instead of beating myself up for what I did not do that day.
It does not matter what other people think about me. If they have something bad to say about the good that I am doing it is because they feel bad about themselves because they know that they should be doing some of the same things.People who are not living up to their potential do not like to see people who are succeed. Don’t take it personal. If I know that I am doing what is right and in the best interest of myself and others then I am doing what God wants me do and I have to keep doing it. Not every body is going to like me or agree with me and that is okay.
It is time to get back to living my best life and doing the things that are in the best interest of my best self. I can not be my best to others if I am not my best to myself first. I can not be patient with others if I am not patient with myself. I can not encourage others if I do not encourage myself. And I can not love others of I do not love myself. I am the key to my happiness, my peace, my productiveness, and my life. Nothing will change until I make the change.
I hope that this speaks to you guys in some powerful way as it did me. We all deserve to have the best life and to be our best selves. We are much stronger and capable of much more than we think we are. We have to show ourselves that we love ourselves by the actions that we take for ourselves. Blessings to all of you.