Lets talk about sin, condemnation, and a guilty conscience. I do not think that some of us know how guilt affects us and how it can keep us from our best. And I also think that many of us hold onto guilt for things that we have done and have a underlying feeling that God is mad at us. I struggled with this, and still have times that I have that thought of, God is mad at me. But it is the following truth that I use to cover up the lie that the enemy puts in my mind.
First of all, yes, we all fall short of God’s glorious standard. The whole world is guilty of sin. And before Jesus, there was no hope for forgiveness. There was no way to take the condemnation and the guilt from us. That guilt caused Adam and Eve to hide from God because of their guilt of sin. King David spoke of how miserable He was because of the guilt that He had for all that He had done. And Judas committed suicide because of the guilt that He felt from His sin. So we can see how guilt can affect us in major ways.
But there is now a way that we can be forgiven and have no need to carry the guilt. We have someone that carried our guilt for us and cleansed our conscience. God knew what the guilt was doing to us so He made the way for him to be able to have mercy on us and for our sins to be forgiven. when we are struggling with guilt we have to remember that God is greater than our guilt. He sent Jesus to pay the price for our wrongdoing so that we can be in right standing with himself. He knew that if we were held down with guilt and condemnation that we could not have the life that He wants us to have. He knew that we could never step into our destiny if we had to carry our own guilt. So He made Jesus who never sinned, to be our sin, so that we could be His righteousness. He traded places with us. (If you want more scriptures on guilt I found this site to be helpful.) We serve such a merciful God, full of grace and unfailing love.
Jesus was sent to save us and not to judge or condemn us. He came so that we can exit the darkness and walk in the light, having a much better life. He came so that we did not have to be weighed down with condemnation and guilt, holding us back from being our best. The blood of Jesus took care of the punishment for our wrongdoing. And all that we are asked to do in return is to believe it is so.
Galatians 3:27 says, when you were baptized you have put on Christ. We were clothed in Christ. Our outfit is Jesus. We put on Jesus. We are covered with Jesus. We are covered with all that Jesus is. And since we are covered with him God sees Jesus when He looks at us. He sees all that Jesus is and not all that we are not. Because of Jesus we are seen as perfect in His eyes. Because Jesus was able to be the perfect person that God had intended for all of us to be, God sees us as perfect too. He sees the heart which is where our true identity resides. Because of Jesus, and our belief in him, we no longer have to wonder what God sees when he looks at us. We do not have to wonder if He sees all of our sins, bad attitudes, faults, failures, mistakes, fall backs, fall offs, and everything else that we are not. We can rest in the fact that we are seen as Jesus. We can come boldly to God’s throne not because of anything that we have done but because of what Jesus did for us.
Romans 8:1 says, “there is now no condemnation in those that are in Christ Jesus.” Acts 10:15 says “What God has cleansed, no longer consider unholy.” John 3:17 says, “For God did not send His son into the world to condemn it, but that the world through him, might be saved.” 1 John 1:19 says, “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sin and to cleanse us from all righteousness.” Hebrews 8:12 says, ” “For I will be merciful to their unrighteousness, and their sins, and their lawless deeds I will remember no more.” These are just a couple of scriptures to show you that because of Jesus you are NOT a shameful sinner that God is mad at and shakes his head every time he looks at you. You have no need to walk around thinking that you are not good enough, not obedient enough, not smart enough, not enough in what ever area that you feel not good enough in. You are enough because Jesus did it all for you and me.
Guilt effects many areas of our life, not just our spiritual part. It can cause a number of physical health problems. Guilt will cause people to become stressed, have anxiety, depression, lack of sleep, stomach problems, high blood pressure, heart problems, weight gain or loss, and many other things. It causes relationship issues. It can cause a person to think that they are such a bad person that they are getting what they deserve or that they do not deserve any better than where they are at in life at the moment. It can cause a person to be self destructive. And in extreme cases it can cause someone to take their own life because of how heavy the guilt is.
A person filled with guilt will often blame others for their actions. They will point fingers. Adam pointed fingers to eve when He told God about eating the apple. Because they feel guilty, but do not want to admit it, they will blame someone else for their actions. It keeps them from having to look at themselves and face their wrongs.
But thank God that we have someone who has made it possible for us to be free from guilt and shame. We have someone who knows and understands the flaws and hardships of being human. We have someone who made the sacrifice for our wrongdoings and we do not have to be punished. And since God is not punishing us why do we feel the need to punish ourselves. If you have done what you needed to do to correct your wrong, if it is a guilt from something that you have done to someone, then you have done what you needed to and could do. You can not make someone except your apology. But You have been forgiven by God and Jesus took your guilt, so receive that freedom from guilt and move on. Remember we all fall short. No one is perfect. We all mess up from time to time. We can never be perfect. All we can do is try our best and believe that Jesus has made our imperfections perfect so that we can move on, always growing in God’s timing.
I am a special breed. I have a weird sense of humor. I don’t look like the average person. I have to study really hard and still don’t have the best grades. I was unwanted as a child and was put in the foster system. I am very sensitive and cry easy. I have rejection and abandonment issues. I have to try somethings several times before I get it right. I struggle with self worth. I have done some really bad things in my past. I am fat. I drink too much alcohol. I talk about people really bad so that i feel better about myself. I snore really loud. I don’t trust people. I have a nasty attitude. The list goes on and on with the kind of flaws that we all have. Are they something that we love to go around and tell people about us, probably not. Matter of fact, most of the things on the flaw list are things that we put a lot of energy and effort into covering up. They are things that we are not proud of about ourselves. And sadly for many of us they are things that we are ashamed of.
But I would like to say to you that God made each and every one of us uniquely and wonderfully. Sure we have things about us that need to be changed as far as our behavior, words, and actions, but that is in God’s timing. As far as our looks, our character, and those quirky things that we do, God made us that way and we should embrace it. We were all made differently so that we would have qualities that we can offer each other. We were made differently so that we can all have something to bring to the table. We were all created to look different because God likes variety. And just because you may look, smell, think, or act different than someone else does not make you any less valuable. If you come from a really rough and jagged past, that does not make you any less important than the next person. If you spent the first part of your life on the wrong side of the tracks, that does not mean that you are a lost cause. We are all important, valuable, and worthy to God.
I spent so much of my energy, time, and life on trying to cover up or change who I was for the first 30 yrs of my life. Looking back on it now I can see just how much energy it does take out of us when we are trying to cover up something or trying to fit in somewhere. And the weight that we carry from the shame, regret, and embarrassment of either the action, event, or ourselves is debilitating at times. I can now completely understand how someone feels when they say that they are not comfortable in their own skin, that they feel like an outcast, or when they say that they can never measure up. I understand how a woman feels when she says that she feels dirty, like used merchandise, broken, dead inside, or unlovable. I understand what it is like to hate yourself because of what someone else did to you and for something that you did.
My journey covering up who I was created to be started at a very early age. At the age of nine or ten My mom put me on my first diet. I was chunky and of course I got bullied a lot for it. By the age of twelve I would wear spandex and tummy control tops to try to make myself seem a little bit smaller or I would wear super big clothes to try to cover up my fat. One of my front teeth stuck out a little bit more than the other so I would never smile showing my teeth and most of the time I would try to shield my mouth with my hand so that no one would see it. I loved the water. I could have lived at the beach or at a pool. As a young child I would splash and play, laughing and carrying on, without a care in the world. By the age of twelve I would not wear my bathing suit in front of anyone without a t-shirt on to cover myself up. Then, by the time that I was around fourteen I wouldn’t even get into a bathing suit out in a public area. Because of my self image I could not do the one thing that I had so much fun doing and it sucked. Because of some events that took place between the ages of thirteen and fifteen, as well as some words that were spoken to me at a younger age, by the age of sixteen I had developed a self view that I was worthless, fat, would never amount to anything good, was stupid, was only good for one thing, there was something wrong with me, I did not fit in anywhere, and what did I do so wrong that God was punishing me my whole life. That is a pretty poor image to have of ones self. And because of that poor self image and my lack of knowledge, and understanding, of the love of God, that poor self image set me on a destructive and shameful path for the next several years. What dignity that I may have still had at that time was definitely gone by the age of twenty. I did things and I had things done to me during those years that left very deep scars and put me in the darkest place that I had ever been. I had thoughts of ending it all a couple of times. I was in a place that had no hope for a better future.
But no one could know that! No one could know that I was really a weak, vulnerable, sad, broken mess. I had to be on top of my game, always looking the best, walking like I had great purpose and confidence, even though I was dieing inside. I had be be unbreakable even though I was already broken. I had to adjust my smile, my walk, my speech, my opinions, my truths, to whatever type of group of people that I was around. I had to act like I knew about things that I knew nothing about. I had to act like I liked things that I hated. I had to act like I knew how to do things that I did not know how to do. I had to do all this acting to try to cover up the real me. And because I was constantly trying to cover up who I was, I didn’t even know who I was. I did not know things that I liked to do. I did not know what interested me. I knew nothing about the person that God created me to be because I was afraid that I would be rejected, hurt, disliked, not approved of, or made fun of. And because of that I would be whoever I thought someone else wanted me to be or would approve of me being.
Once I got ahold of the truth of who God was, and started reading His word, I began to gain strength to learn who I was created to be and to be that person. The freedom of the truth that we were all created to be different from each other and that God created a masterpiece. The freedom that we were created uniquely in our mothers womb and that God, knowing exactly who we would be and what we would do throughout our entire lives, still chose to birth us and love us. The freedom that God does not see me as the mistakes that I have made, nor does He see me as the disgusting things that have been done to me. The freedom that I am not expected to be perfect and that God loves every part of me, flaws and all. The freedom of knowing that God does have a good plan for me, even though I come from where I come from, even though I have done what I have done, even though I have had done to me what was done. He still loves me very much and he created me to be who I am, not who someone else wants or needs me to be.
There are many others truths of who God created you to be in the bible and my hope is that you will read them and own them as your truth. Don’t hide behind your flaws and your truth. I am not saying to go around and tell every single person you meet your deepest darkest secret. I am saying to be true to who God created you to be and love yourself in a balanced way. Don’t use your time and energy on trying to hide who you are out of fear, shame, guilt, or embarrassment. You are who God created you to be and you are special. You are not what has been done to you, nor are you what you have done. The past is the past and the future is what matters. Embrace your flaws and be the fearless, flawed, perfect hearted, beautiful, and strong human being that God created you to be. Know that you are forgiven, that God has mercy on you and he sees you for your heart and not your actions. Know that you have been given the grace that you need to overcome anything and to be everything that you were created to be. Hug yourself and say I am loved, I am desired, I am wanted, I am special, I am okay, and I am going to be me!!!!
Because I have learned who I was created to be and stepped into that position I now love myself. I can actually walk tall with true confidence now. I can admit my flaws and feel no less valuable than the next person. I now know that I am just as important and just as worthy as the best person there is in this world. I now know that I am equal to and never less than the next person. I have also been freed to love others just as they are. I do not expect anyone to be more or less than I am. And I no longer have the stress and misery of trying to be someone that I was not meant to be. You too can be free to be you, with flaws and all. You too are equal to and not less than. You too are loved deeply by a mighty God that already knows everything that there is to know about you, plus, everything that you will do or be in the future. Embrace who you were created to be and fall in love with that person.
ROMANS 7:20 BUT IF I DO WHAT I DON’T WANT TO DO I AM NOT REALLY THE ONE DOING WRONG; IT IS SIN LIVING IN ME THAT DOES IT.
When we accept Jesus as our savior we become a two part being. Jesus gives birth to our spirit that resides in our heart and is the core of our being, which is who we really are. Then we have our soul, which is our mind, our will, and our emotions within the body, and that is where the sinful nature resides. The spirit is what births the good desires within us and the soul is full of our sinful human nature.
The part of us that has the desire to do right and good is the spirit part of our being, which is who we were created by God to be and who He chooses to see when He looks at us. Our spirit is the part of us that God created perfectly, uniquely and wonderfully.
Our soul, our sinful nature, is the product of Adam’s sin that was birthed in us and the part of us that Jesus died for. He died so that we would not be punished for that sinful nature and to give birth to our spirit. He covers our sinful nature, our soul, with himself so that God only sees Him and our spirit when He looks upon us.
When we do things that we know we shouldn’t do or that we do not want to do it is our sinful nature overpowering our spirit. It is not the core part of our being that is committing the sin, therefore it is not really us who is doing it, but our sinful nature influencing our soul to do it. We have that one part of us that is wanting to do right but we also have this part of us that really wants to do wrong. And that desire to do wrong is super strong because it is use to getting it’s way and wants to keep getting it. So now we have to work on resisting those loud cries of the soul wanting what it wants and choose to do what the spirit wants to do.
God knows who we really are, who He created us to be, and that is who He sees us to be because of Jesus. He does not look at us as horrible beings. He knows that we are all too human and that the only way that we can be anything any more than human is through Jesus and by His grace and mercy. He sees us as the potential of who we can be with a lot of His help.
When God gave me this understanding of the difference of my spirit and my soul, my sinful nature, it brought a certain freedom from the condemnation that I had over my sinful actions. It was not an excuse to use or a reason to keep sinning, but an understanding of how God chose to look at the situation. It was as if He was telling me that He sees and knows the good side of me. That He knows my core being wants to do right and good all the time. That He looks at me for who I really am and not what I do or don’t do. He was not going to look at my faults, failures, disobedience and throw them in my face like people do. And because of that it made me want to be better and to gain better control over my sinful nature so that I could be who God had created me to be and to have the life that I could have.
God knows our heart and He knows who it is that we really are because He created us that way. He also knows the sinful nature and it’s power over our soul. He has chose to look at us not for what we do but for who we are. Any part of us that is unclean, beat up, scared up, bruised up, and messy is covered and hidden from God by the blood of Jesus. And since God already sees us as who we really are and not what we do lets stop condemning ourselves and see ourselves the way that He does and our actions will begin to follow what we believe.
How do you feel about your relationship with God? Do you think that you have done enough for His acceptance? Or do you think that you have done too much wrong for His acceptance? Do you think that you have done enough right for His love? Or do you think that He is mad at you for your failures? Can I tell you something……. Your relationship with God has nothing to do with what you do. It has everything to do with who you are! And you are a perfect child of God through Jesus.
God sees us through Jesus. He sees everything that Jesus is when He looks at us. He does not see us for mistakes, rebellion, downfalls, or failures. He sees our hearts, which is where Jesus resides. He sees us as who He created us to be. He knows that we are part human and that we have to learn how to walk by our spirit and not our humanity. He knows that we are on a journey and that we are going to take wrong turns at times. He knows that we can not be perfect in ourselves and that is why He made Jesus to be perfect for us.
Until we know that we are right with God our actions will not add up. We have to know that we are right before we will act right. What we believe is what we will do. If you believe that you can ride a bike without falling then you will jump on the bike and ride it right. But if you believe that you can not ride the bike then you will not ride it right. The same goes with every other thing in our lives. If we think that we are bad then we are going to act bad. But if we know that we are right then we will act right.
The good news is that while we are learning to act right God already sees us as right. He does not see us for the wrong that we do and He does not hold anything against us. He wants us to believe that we are who He says that we are so that we can be who He created us to be. He knows that if were to not accept us until we right that we would never be right.
Believe that God sees you the way that He says He does today and watch your actions change. Watch your joy and peace increase as you know who you are in Jesus and begin to see yourself that way. Believe that you are already loved and accepted by God. Believe that Jesus lives within you and that you are all that He is. Believe that through Jesus you can do anything that you need to or want to do. Now watch as you begin to walk it out.
Once we accept Jesus into our hearts there is nothing that will ever make Him turn His back on us accept unbelief in Him. As long as we believe that He is who He says He is and that He did what He said He did then we will always be part of Him and Him part of us. There is no behavior, action, thought, habit, or disobedience that will make Him not accept and love us. Even if we get off the narrow path and travel down the wide destructive path for a long time, if we come back to the narrow path He will walk right beside us. He will pick up where He left off in our walk with Him to becoming who He created us to be and having the life that He has for us.
Many people get off track on their walk with God and think that God is mad at them or that He won’t accept them anymore because of what they have done. But that is not the truth. He knows us better than we know ourselves. He understands the human nature and our weaknesses. He knows our hard headedness and how stubborn we can be. He knew everything that we would ever do before we accepted Him into our hearts. We are no surprise to God and there is nothing that we will ever do that will catch Him off guard or that He did not already know that we were going to do. He knows that it is going to take our entire lives to work out our imperfections and He is okay with that. He knows how many times we are going to be selfish, follow our sinful nature, do what we want to do, be disobedient, make a mistake, and not listen to Him. But yet He loves us still and He always will.
Our problem is that when we know that we are not following the Holy Spirit and are doing things that we know are not pleasing to God we get mad at ourselves. We start to beat ourselves up and not accept ourselves. We get filled with shame, guilt, and regret. We start to feel unworthy and like we are a bad person. We start to have bad thoughts about ourselves and wonder what is wrong with us. We want to do right, but we do wrong. We do what we do not want to do and then wonder why we keep doing it. We start to listen to all the lies that the enemy puts in our head and many times we begin to believe them. Then our actions get worse and we feel even worse about ourselves. We end up in a deep dark pit and the enemy is sitting there laughing at us. But we do not have to stay in that pit and we can give the enemy a big black eye by standing back up and using God’s grace to pull ourselves back up.
Even if we have a clear conscience and are doing all that we know we should be doing we are still undeservant of God’s love and mercy. By our human nature we are sinners and were enemies of God. But because of His grace and love for us He made a way that we could be made right with Him. He wanted to be able to love us and be a part of our lives so badly that He sent Jesus to take our punishment so that we could Be His children. It is hard to understand that depth of love because we are unable to love that deep. But if God loved us that much then we should love Him enough to love ourselves enough to accept that we are loved by Him no matter what we do. He sees us for who we really are and not for what we do. Just because we smoke ciggerettes does not mean that He sees us as a cigerrette. Just because we say a curse word does not mean that He sees us as a curse word. Just because we have a bad attitude does not mean that He sees us as a nasty person (he knows our heart and why we have that attitude).
We are going to have struggles, ups and downs, set backs, failures, fall backs, and make bad choices. There is no way that we can be perfect and God does not expect us to be. If you have been struggling with your righteousness and have been having thoughts that do not line up with the truth of God’s word then you have to renew your mind. Spend time in the word, write down scriptures that declare who you are in Christ, and then say them over and over and think about them daily until they get rooted back in your heart. We can not change a thing until we change the way that we think about it first. What we think about is what we end up believing and how we end up acting. Remind yourself how loved you are, how uniquely made you are, how special you are, how strong you are, that God lives within you, that you are righteous because of Jesus, that you are accepted by God, and that you are never alone because God is with you always. Once we can think correct thoughts then our actions will follow and we will step into the life that Jesus has for us. And if we get off track there is no need to worry because God’s grace and mercy is bigger than our mistakes. Your are the righteousness of God in Christ and He loves you always and forever.
I have been struggling with my relationship with God for a while now. I know that the bible says as long as we believe in Jesus then we are saved and that we are okay with God. I know that it says as long as we ask for forgiveness then we are forgiven and that He remembers our sin no more. I know that it says that Jesus’ blood covers our sins and that we are made perfect through him. I believe that the bible speaks all truth. I believe that Jesus died and rose from the dead. I believe, but do I believe that it applies to me? Do I believe that my sins are forgiven? Maybe not. I mean, I say that I believe, but do I really believe it applies to me? I say that I do, but obviously I do not believe that it does to a certain point. I have been weighed down with guilt, shame, and anger towards myself because I know that there are things that God has told to me to do, or not to do, and I have not listened. I have been making messes, depriving myself of the peace and joy that God wants to give me. I have felt so bad for allowing sin to rule back in my life again after God had delivered me from so many things and gave me a second chance at life. “How could I disrespect God like that”, are the words that plagued my mind day in and day out. How could I allow myself to lack the peace and joy that were available to me by choosing to do what I knew I shouldn’t be doing. The enemy was having a field day with my thoughts and sin was winning the battle for awhile. I was treating others very well, always lending a helping hand to bring them peace and joy but I was treating myself poorly. I prayed and prayed for answers to what was wrong with me and why had I gotten off of the path that I was on, being the best person that I could be and doing what was right just because it was the right thing to do, no matter how I felt about it. I was so angry with myself because I had lost the self control that I had and that I had hindered my relationship with God. It was all my own fault and I did not know how to fix it.
As I opened my bible to Romans chapter 5:15-21 chains started to be broken off of me. God used those chapters to speak to me and I had a tingling feeling come over me as the words. I had read those chapters many times before but this time was different. Certain words popped out at me, certain phrases seemed to come off of the page towards me. This is what the Lord screamed at me as I read those verses. “Yes, sin is powerful, and it is in everyone. But there is a huge difference between sin and my grace. My grace for you overpowers any sin that is within you. My righteousness is greater than your own condemnation. Stop beating yourself up for the nature that you were born with and receive my grace and the righteousness that is offered to you through Jesus. Sin leads to condemnation, but my free gift of righteousness leads to you being okay with me, even though, you are guilty of many sins. If you will receive my gift and my grace then it will lead you into victory over sin controlling you. Because of Jesus you are in right relationship with me. And because of that, you have the opportunity to live a new life. No matter how big your sin is, my grace is bigger. Receive my free gift of righteousness and let my grace lead you into the new life available to you”.
It was definitely a “God thing” in that moment cause like I said, I had read those verses may times before, but it never spoke so strongly to me. I am now at ease with myself. All condemnation is gone. I do not feel as if God is upset with me. And I feel empowered to fight this battle of sin in my life. I am dead to sin and alive to God. I am not under the powers of sin anymore and I choose to live by the guidance of the Holy Spirit. I know that I will still sin, but, I no longer feel as if it has any power over me.
If any of you are struggling with condemnation I strongly suggest that you read Romans chapters 5&6. If you are struggling with sin read chapter 6. We have God’s grace to help us to live the life that Jesus died for us to have. And we have his free gift of righteousness, through Jesus, to cover our sins and bring us into right relationship with him. Don’t let the enemy or yourself think that you do not have a close relationship with God because of your sins. If we believe in Jesus and receive God’s free gift then we are in good standing with God. He loves you, He is your friend, and He is your father forever!!
For many years I searched for full happiness. I would buy new clothes, new decor for the house, new shoes, new jewelry. When I seen those items in the store I would get a fuzzy feeling inside. When I would put on the new item or set it up in my house it would make me smile because it looked so nice and made me feel good. I would love the compliments that I got on my new outfit or shoes or jewelry. It made me happy. But the problem was that the happiness only lasted a small amount of time and then I was on the prowl for the next “thing” to make me happy again.
It was not until I was looking in my closet one day and seen several outfits that I had bought several months back, and they still had the tags on them, that God revealed an important lesson to me. I had bought those clothes because they made me feel fuzzy and warm when I put them on in the store. I was trying to buy my happiness and wasting money on things that will never bring lasting joy to me. I was searching in all the wrong things for what I was missing. What I was missing was available to me the whole time but I was not seeking it. I was searching the world for what I had already on the inside of me. I needed to put on Jesus and His joy just like I put on that outfit in the store that day.
Some of most unhappy people in this world are the rich people. They look to money and things to bring them joy only to never find it. They may find it for a small moment, but it does not last. They are looking to outward things instead of what they have available to them through Jesus.
When we come to know the love that Jesus has for us, the beauty that we have, the talents that we have been given, and the importance of ourselves in the eyes of Jesus, we gain a joy on the inside of us that nothing else can give. We have to learn and believe in the love and importance that we have to God. When we realize the importance of ourselves and the value that we have, we are able to have a lasting joy in our hearts. When we know the love that God has for us we are complete in everything else. We have the fuzzy and warm feeling within us 24/7, without the need to search for anything to give us that feeling. If you are lacking happiness today I suggest that you read about the love that Jesus has for you and who He has made you to be. Nothing in this world compares to the love of God.
Many of us look at ourselves by the things that we do. We base who we are by the actions that we make. We think that because we have a nasty attitude that we are a bad person. We think that because we are unable to do something that we are less of a person. We base our who on our do and that is wrong.
Let me ask you this. When you say unkind things, does your heart feel the way that the words came out of your mouth? Do you feel bad for what you said after you said it? You feel bad because it goes against who you are, against what your heart feels. Or do you have a bad habit that you base who you are off of that habit? Your bad habit does not make you a bad person. Until we learn to seperate our who from our do then we will never be able to make changes that we want to make in our lives and we will never be who God created us to be.
We have to know who we are in Christ, who we were created to be, and that our do does not affect who we are. We all have great hearts. We were all created uniquely and for a purpose. We are all made perfect through Jesus. We are all overcomers and victorious. God sees past what we do and sees our heart. Our heart is who we really are. And once we know who we are, then our what we do will start to change.
Just because we do wrong does not mean that we are a bad person. What we do does not change our heart of hearts. But who we are can change what we do. Get to know the who that God created you to be and stop judging yourself by your actions. Once you learn who God created you to be and you truly believe that you are that person then what you do will start to line up with who you are.
How many times have you felt like you will never be good enough? How many times have you thought that all you seem to be able to do good is mess things up? How many times have you thought that you had to be or do better before God would approve of you? Well I have struggled with all those thoughts and feelings for many years. Not long ago I was watching a teaching and it was about those same things. It was one of those, what I call, light bulb moments. You know, one of those moments when all the sudden you have a deep understanding about something.
The truth is that none of us are good. All of us are a mess up. We all fall short of God’s glorious standards. BUT that is the very reason that God sent Jesus. Because of Jesus, and only Jesus, are we able to be good. Only because of Jesus are we able to not mess up as much. And only because of Jesus does God accept us just as we are.
In and of ourselves we are unable to produce any kind of a good thing. But because of Jesus living on the inside of us and equipping us with what we need we can do good. But make no mistake that our do does not make our who. Who we are is not determined by what we do. Because of Jesus we are already perfect on the inside (our spirit). We have the seed of perfection in the deepest part of our hearts. And we spend our lives with that seed growing and the outward actions of us changing. As the seed grows we make changes in our actions, our thoughts, our words, and our attitudes. And that is what matters to God. He made a part of perfect so that the rest of us will be able to become perfect once we reach heaven.
It is hard to accept the fact that someone could love all the dark and ugly parts of us. It is hard to believe that God approves of us while we are such a mess. But He knew what we were going to be like and every last thing that we would ever do before He ever called us to himself. We are no surprise to Him at all. What matters to him is that we allow Him to grow the seed within us and follow His Holy Spirits guidance to be a bright light in the darkness and to have a life that reflects His glory. He wants us to be totally dependent on Him because if we are not then we will not be at our best, reflecting His glory.
Starting today will you decide that you are going to be totally dependent on God? Will you ask for and receive His help with everything that you do? Will you accept His hand and let Him love you into wholeness, leading a life that glorifies Him? Without Jesus we are a lost cause. BUT with Him we are victorious!